How I really want to appreciate myself, after my experience working with rude coworker and supervisor
I work in a very demanding and stressful job, so it's no surprise that I will find rude coworker and even supervisor.
But this is a blog post about what can I build in my control, towards the life I wanted. Because to be working with people like these, it is mentally exhausting and they truly wanted to make me feel small.
But not really anymore. Because I have supportive people in an art community and friends who care about me. I can leave those at workplace and I can always be jaded about my workplace, but not my own artwork. The safe space I have with fellow community and friends.
It really questions me because multiple times I got frustrated and got mad at people around me because it reminds me of how I was treated. But I am slowly getting better at it. I don't have to treat the same way to the people I care about. Rude coworker and I are different people, sometimes they wanted to think otherwise. That if they can, I can do. But we are different people.
I'd like to think that I don't have to prove anyone that I am worth it, because my existence already makes someone else really joyful and made their day. I don't want to erase this part of myself for sure! Especially towards people I care about. I'd even like to introduce my younger self how much I have grown as a person that you'll meet such wonderful people on the Internet!
And I'd like to believe there are so much life than just my dayjob and that is okay to set boundaries.
And yes this is more of a reminder for myself too!
Hope you enjoy my short, yet a more positive end of my blog entry! Hope you have nice rest of your day!